The reason We cannot adopt our Son

As you all know I have been having some issues with my heart.

The stress and anxiety of adoption has made this problem worse.... 

After speaking with several doctors and another trip to the ER 2 nights ago, we determined that we would not be able to proceed. 

It broke my heart that we would not be able to get our son, and it was my fault!!!

I held a little bit of hope in the back of my mind that I could get my health in order and still bring him home.

I woke up this morning being told that he was taken to a new orphanage by a priest over there. This priest has several hundred kids in his  orphanage. Apparently this is a very nice place with caregiver that can love and teach the kids and give the kids more individual attention. There is a catch though..... The kids that live there are not available for adoption! 

So all hope was gone!!!

Now, there is a rumor saying that kids may be adoptable from there after a year.... As far as I am concerned that is a rumor. There are no records of kids being adopted from there. So I doubt I would be able to adopt even if that is the case.

Please pray for this sweet boy!!! Pray that regardless of what happens he will loved!! Pray that he will be taught, loved and cherished the way he should be!!!!

If you could also pray for my heart, I would appreciate it!

Love this boy Forever!!!
First picture I ever saw of him.... Can you see Why I fell in love??

 This was my hubby's favorite of the first ones we saw!

I will always have a place in my heart for him!!